ok peoples, heres the deal... i have this friend of sorts who i have always been told isn't such a great friend. i have never had a reason to believe otherwise. i figured these people were just hatin' no big deal, right? wrong. not only have these people been right, but this little s**t decided to send me a video message to my phone that i'll say was WAY TOO GRAPHIC for a friend to be sending another friend. this guy i have been seeing off and on forever saw the video message and thought this revealing video message was my "friend". this guy ABSOLUTELY HATES this friend and i can see why now. not only has my "friend" tried to sabotage my happiness whenever i am dating someone, he actually slept with my ex when we were a couple and it was video recorded! he said he was drunk, taken advantage of, BLAH BLAH BLAH and i was dumb enough to believe this idiot. now he scared off this guy 4 good and i just want to kick his ****!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what should i do people? am i justified to wanna get even? HELP!

ok peeps, i have learned such a big lesson today while at work. i work the midnite shift and was supposed to leave at 7 AM. at 7:10 i made the comment to another co worker over the phone that my relief who  was actually my boss, had better be in an cacident or dead for her to be running late. not even two minutes later my boss's sister called and told me that she had been rushed to the hospital after being involved in a car accident. I FEEL LIKE THE HUGEST **** IN THE WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and thats an understatement. its not like i want her hurt or anything, i would NEVER wish that on anybody, well ok maybe i would IF the person deserved it. but not my boss. shes cool as hell and i cant help but feel responsible for that accident. what if its true when people say that words are powerful. i mean what are the chances of that happening? ANY WORDS OF WISDOM PEOPLE? i hope that people who read this blog will take to heartr that words really are powerful. its like that old saying goes, watch what u wish 4, u just might get it.

ok people.... here's the deal. my bestest friend karen is the sweetest woman on the planet and will do anything for her family and friends. she has a 19 yr old daughter who she adores and has given the world to this girl. she supported her daughter's choices, no matter how poor they may have been, and sent her to australia to perform at the sydney opera house with some indiana honors band. shes also bought the girl a new car, paid for four 1,000 dollar phone bills for her kid's cell phone and put her into 2 colleges in one year. she flunked out of the first school and karen sent her daughter to millersville in pennsylvania. she just up and left the school without telling anyone, including karen and went back to terre haute, indiana to a group of people that she once said made her want to kill herself. poor karen's going thru hell and suffers from chest pains since this all went down. i say she shouls go find her daughter and beat the living hell out of her until karen is physically exhausted!  is that so wrong? im not a parent of a teenager thank god, so if there are any parents out there and u have advice on this subject, PLEASE hit me up with a reply. i'm sooooooooooo worried that karen is going to stroke out from the stress one day. calling the girl ungrateful for all that her mother has done seems to be going easy onthe kid. but not talking to your mom and posting b.s. on myspace that ur mom is abusive when its the farthest thing from the truth seems unforgivable. All this drama because karen shut the girl's cell off and cancelled the credit cards and told her that if she wanted to be a big girl, then she'd have to get a job and start paying 4 stuff. i was a little wild when i was at that age, but this is ridiculous. again, any advice on this topic will be greatly appreciated.