There's something about the way you said it,
That I knew you were telling the truth,
But I wasn't quite ready to believe you,
I didn't want to believe you loved me, too.

I wanted to love you with all of my heart,
But I didn't want you to love me at all,
I wanted you to beat me, and not care,
I wanted you to say you would, but never be there.

I know all of this sounds insane to you,
It doesn't even make all that much sense to me,
But things in my past make me who I am now,
I wanted to let you love me, I just didn't know how.

There's something about being abused by someone you love
That makes future relationships seem impossible,
I don't know if you'll wait for me to figure it out,
But don't take it personal, you aren't what this is about.

She would fix it if she knew what was broken
Where to start, the words have already been spoken
Lying down the truth, and starting with the lies
Smiling behind her frown, lonely in disguise.

Tears are beaking out, like an uncontrollable fire
The one thing she doesn`t need, is her only hearts desire
Standing in your shadow, feeling rather weak
Not able to shine through, the tears rest on her cheek.

Peeking out from behind, when she feels that its okay
But no, not tonight, or any other day
Blood is fresh on her mind, she sees it on her hands
"This is the only way out," her heart so wrongfully demands.

She slashes her throat, but doesn`t feel any pain
That being unusual, she thinks she`s gone insane
"Let it go, Let it go," something whispers in her ear
The one who is always speaking to her, her greatest fear.

Blood is pouring onto the floor, she cannot make it stop
Her hand can no longer hold the razor, she has to let it drop
Her eyes are blurry, and her vision is so unclear
But for a moment she swears, she can sense you here

 -LOVE NEVER WANTED ME