I went yesterday to a woman's house and saw for the first time my new baby boy! He is adorable with big blue eyes and he is such a cuddler! I'm talking about a kitten people so please don't think anything else! :) I had planned to adopt this little guy during last week and had the chance to go visit him on Sunday evening. He was adorable, he was from a litter of six in which only three survived... his brother and his sister are both tabby stribed but he is a black and white fur ball. The finances for this stretched me a bit but what the heck I say for the love of an animal... As I was there the woman kindly told me that because the shelter wants to place them so badly they're willing to forgoe the cost of the other adoption.. sort of like a buy one get one free thing!! It was a yes instantly. Now for the names... Milo and Miko pronounced meelow and meeko... I thought of hte name milo and argued with my gentelman friend about the name for a few days .. argument was solved immediatley between us when we realized we had just acquired two new baby boys..

meow!! I'm so excited I've already bought all their things that they will need to become part of our household!!!

So I would like to tell you that the universe opened up and smacked me just to let me know I am stupid at times. I should have never agreed to see him (my ex) as that evening after I was ready to go and meet up with him he called to cancel. I asked him what was up and explained to him that if he needs to talk about something he can tell me but He just said he didn't feel like going to the movies and that he was staying in for the night. No big deal. But I sure felt dumb. So to continue I called my girlfriend and a new prince charming in my life and figured out we'd go watch the colts game at a local place. I was having a great time with all the girls and this one sweet guy and then my ex text "are you mad with me" at 9:30... I naturally text back "no im out". He then proceeded to call five times and I finally picked up because to be honest I've never really gone through a break up. I have had transitions but both parties pretty much moved on at equal paces... To conclude he called I answered he said where was I hanging out and I politely told him I didn't feel like telling him because I didn't want him showing up and then in moments my gal pal with balls of steel took my phone shut it and we continued to have a marvelous evening. When I got home there were five more calls and one more text that read "whats ur problem"... hmmm
whats my problem? my problem seems to be that I had too much sympathy for my ex and to little respect for myself and my future without him ....

Im so mad at myself but I can say I just need a few more nights out with the gals and I'll be damn sure I never make those mistakes again!

So to update anyone who was bored and started to read this .. I recently as of last week broke up with my guy of two years.  A month prior I had moved out of his house basically telling him that I wanted to see if we could work out together if I wasn't foreced to see him everday therefore we weren't forced to work thrhough problems.  Throught the month I loved my independence and really realized he was a shit head.. example for you would be last year when after I asked him why were weren't as sexual as we should be he said he is just not that attracted to my weight.. now please keep in mind i've been the same size ever since day one with him.... so that hurt but i stupidly stayed.. he then after we broke up when i told him i loved him but i wasn't in love with him told me that he was never in love with me.. he said that a few times while dating but i was dumb and naive and just really thought he didn't want to share that with me... so to move forward after our break up i obviously the ready one to move on, have done so.. i hang out with my friends and go out and don't worry about anyone or anything other than me and what i need to.. well he calls me a week later sounding devestated and yeah of course i missed my friend of two years who i lived with and saw every day for two years so i gave in and said fine we can see eachother tomorrow and talk but i don't know what your trying to gain from talking with me its only going to make things harder... well he then came over the next night and continually asked me so... can i get a bj.. can't we just be friends with benefits then?? I totally nixed that idea and laughed in his face because he was serious! I made it into a laughing matter but i was honestly taken back by the comment and it made me realize how dumb I was to stick around for so long wasting my time.

 why am i wasting my time now then when in 40 mintues I made plans to go see him and a movie...i could really go and hang out with a friend of mine instead but he wondered what i was doing i said no and he mentioned movies so i said sure... ugh .. i know i don't want to be with him but he really doesn't believe me.. after pulling his pathetic attempt at getting some play he then played the jelouse your fucking other guys scenario and why can't i come over if your not seeing someone else.. kind of insinuationg i was cheating on him but i wasn't and he is just seeking an easy way out on all this when all it really was was that he took way to damn long to realize a good thing...

 

okay my hands are cramping  up here ill let you know how it works.